12 September 2013


~for my wife~

The universe woke up today
and decided, fuck it all, I'm gonna make THAT one

The universe put on its dark silvery robe,
strolled on down to the Fate Machine and hit

The red light whispering into the darkness,
the hum of stars and planets churning, someone on Earth

This person looks into the sky, or into the air between atoms,
and feels the overflow of heat and tears permeate their being:

will ever be the same; I am having a realization
that I am not the best me, that I am flawed, that I am

that I have been forgotten, that I am shit on God's shoe,
that I have no motion but to finish my dinner, wipe my chin, and

Mmm, the universe thinks, good enough to the last drop.
Waaah, the person weeps, never ever good enough.

the universe is so lonely, with only itself,
and, with so many of us, we are so

We have but each other and the universe has its power.
I give us, the universe and all of us in it, a new name:

What is it that we keep losing, that it keeps hurting?
What is it that keeps hurting, that we can't give

Why don't we wake up before the universe does
and say, fuck it all, we're gonna make our own god damn

05 September 2013

Taken Toys

When I was a child,
I would pocket my friend's toys:
a marble here, a fading GI Joe there;
a half-used eraser, a Yahtzee die,
the army guy with the bazooka,

or pieces: the plastic plug from a watergun,
Barbie's shoe, the Play-Doh knife,
a Hot Wheels car missing wheels,
a jack, the Transformer missile
that wouldn't fire from the launcher.

It wasn't the stealing, it wasn't the toy,
but the need to have a memento,
a reminder of my time with them, a reminder
of how happy a child could be.
            LITTLE DID I KNOW,

that they weren't thrown away or returned or lost
in the cushions or down the grates or retaken by other children:
the other day in a dream I opened a room
and found it filled with all my taken toys.
Growing up, I'd forgotten them anyway.